“This is the call of our life. Surf the chaos!” – Denise Van W.
You want something safe? Call your mother. Ask if she still has your crib; maybe a cozy blanket and a quiet room.
Otherwise, get on with life.
Today you have to carve out your own space. You have to take more risks, and learn to do lots of difficult things on your own; often in messy situations, with minimal support – maybe no support.
You set yourself up for misery when you fail, or worse, refuse, to exert influence over your own destiny.