“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson
Ultra Marathon Man: Confessions of an All-Night Runner
By: Dean Karnazes
“The cross-country guys hung out in late-night coffee shops and read books by Kafka and Kerouac. They rarely talked about running; it was just something they did.”
“Disillusioned with the trappings of the corporate scene, the things that really mattered – friendship and exploration, personal expansion and a sense of meaning – had gotten all twisted around making a lot of money and buying stuff. I hungered for a place where I could explore nature and my capabilities, away from a corporate office in a corporate building in a big city with crowded supermalls and people judging me by the car I drove.”
“Focusing on work in the afternoon became increasingly difficult because I couldn’t wait to head off for a run.”
Note: See page 72 for an absurd Course Profile comparison between Boston Marathon and the devastating Heartbreak Hill versus the Western States 100-Mile Endurance Run.
“Thoreau once said that a man’s riches are based on what he can do without.”
“Soon I began experiencing the effects of the high altitude. My head grew light, and the surrounding scenery started to look dreamlike and distant. My fingers swelled so that I had difficulty opening and closing my hands.”
“I washed down a handful of pretzels with some Cytomax, an electrolyte replacement and lactic-acid-buffering solution popular with endurance athletes.”
“It’s called nyctalopia, or night blindness. It can be caused by lowered blood pressure or exposure to bright light during the day. The body’s capacity to produce a chemical compound called rhodopsin, or visual purple, which is necessary for the perception of objects in dim light, is temporarily impaired.”
“Most dreams die a slow death. They’re conceived in a moment of passion, with the prospect of endless possibility, but often languish and are not pursued with the same heartfelt intensity as when first born. Slowly, subtly, a dream becomes elusive and ephemeral.”
“Outdoor World Championships, a week-long, multi-sport event that included trail running, mountain biking, windsurfing, climbing, and a triathlon.”
“Beyond running 80 to 120 miles per week, along with mountain biking, surfing, and windsurfing regularly, my routine consists of 200 push-ups, 50 pull-ups, and 400 sit-ups – twice a day.”
“Often I find myself living on four hours of a sleep a night for weeks on end, trying to keep the dynamics of family, work, and running in balance. Forgoing sleep is the only way I’ve figured out how to fit it all in.”
“Running has taught me that the pursuit of a passion matters more than the passion itself. Immerse yourself in something deeply and with heartfelt intensity – continually improve, never give up – this is fulfillment, this is success.”
“As a running buddy once said to me: Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming: “WOW!! what a ride!”
This ad for Mercedes Benz beautifully depicts the left and right hemispheres of the human brain and masterfully communicates the contrasting roles they play to create the dynamic, beautiful world that we are lucky to be a part of, each and every day.
In case the ad is moved, I’m hosting it here.
As a preface to my Doing What Feels Right, I should explain the following. I’ve identified two strong character traits have prevented me from living this way.
1. As a child, I was far more interested in accuracy and objective reality than emotion and subjective reality. I believe emotion was a flawed compass and a hindrance to the greater good of correctness.
–For me, to Do What Feels Right is an unfamiliarly subjective manner of navigating this world. I’m more comfortable building tensions into my life to herd myself in whatever manner I’ve evaluated as best for me.
2. I still believe you’re more likely to achieve a goal if you have a plan and enact that plan. The alternative is to walk around blindly and expect to end up in the right place.
–To Do What Feels Right feels nearly blind as I’ve not yet learned or believe it’s wise to fully trust emotion or intuition. I’m more comfortable following the latter than the former.
Doing What Feels Right: Preface
I’ve decided to take a novel new approach to living. This decision will effect the decisions I make every day that ultimately affect the course of my life. This decision will effect every thought that passes through my head in every waking minute.
Let’s call this novel new approach to living: Doing What Feels Right; because it’s easier to remember and build on ideas when we compartmentalize and label them, not because it’s fair or accurate to compartmentalize and label anything. This issue with compartmentalization has revealed itself as a prominent but inevitable issue in how I understand the world. Life can never be about connecting dots; this will always be nothing more than a dangerous figure of speech. No matter how accurate and cleverly I can demonstrate a system on paper, the power is in the understanding, and the real power is found by those who read between the lines and internalize and feel life’s abstract lessons. This final step is where I believe I fail.
Knowing has gotten be quite far in life. It’s gotten me here, but here often doesn’t feel right. What’s wrong? Where did I go wrong? I explore this question more often than I think about sex; for those who haven’t heard, assuming I’m a man, that means I think about it more often than every 7 seconds. Have I ever found answers? Yes, for the objective, never for myself; which leaves me accurate and lost.
As horrible as this sounds, Doing What Feels Right will be very difficult for me. I will literally need to remind myself every day; likely every minute for the first few days.
What Do I Expect To Achieve?
I expect tension and stress will slowly melt away as newness anxieties fluctuate. My cortisol levels will drop and my systolic blood pressure will settle. I will be more comfortable, at peace, closer to my sense of rightness.
This will not be a cure-all. In fact, I expect much anxiety and negative repercussions to come from this exercise. This is a learning exercise. As with anything else, there is a balance. Though initially, before exploring balance, I will be taking careful note of what things I continue to do despite feeling “unright”, and what things are unavoidable, nearly unavoidable or routine in my life that don’t feel right.
How much of my life can feel right and how much is sustainable?
What Chapter Will Follow?
Reapplying Power: Reawakening the Thoroughly Explicated Objective Reality to Now Manifest Life More Appropriately.
Divorcing Objectivity: Truest Understanding of Man Knows No Objectivity.
Certain job and career choices are fundamentally incompatible with being meaningfully engaged on a day to day basis with a young family.
The reality of the society that we’re in is that there are thousansd and thousands and people of out there leading lives of quiet, screaming desperation, where they working long hard hours at jobs they hate to enable them to buy things they don’t need to impress people they don’t like.
We need to face the truth that governments and corporations aren’t going to solve this issue for us.
We have to be careful with the time frame that we choose upon which to judge our balance.
Wake up well rested after a good night’s sleep. Have sex. Walk the dog. Have breakfast with my wife and children. Have sex again. Drive the kids to school on the way to the office. Do three hours work. Play sport with a friend at lunch time. Do another three hours work. Meet some mates in the park for an early evening drink. Drive home for dinner with my wife and kids. Meditate for half an hour. Have sex. Walk the dog. Have sex again. Go to bed.
We need to be realistic. We can’t do it all in one day. We need to elongate the time frame upon which we judge the balance in our lives…
A day is too short. After I retire is too long.
We need to approach balance in a balanced way.
With the smallest investment in the right places you can radically transform the quality of your relationships and the quality of your life. Moreover, I think it can transform society because if enough people do it we can change society’s definition of success away from the moronically simplistic notion that the person with the most money when he dies wins to a more thoughtful and balanced definition of what a life well-lived looks like.
This video from Gapminder features a wonderful visual to support a discussion about the rapid change over the last 200 years. After World War II, life expectancy and average income has improved rapidly, in some countries more than others. Continue reading Gapminder: 200 Years that Changed the World
Sales is imperative. It’s prevalent in all aspects of life, but here I’d like to focus on how it will affect my book and where you come in. Furthermore, I’d like to focus not on selling my book to publishers, but focus on selling content to readers. I don’t want to fool anyone; I want to understand what the world needs and do whatever I can to help.
The problem: You cannot share answers if no one thinks they have any questions. You cannot share your answers if no one thinks you have any. You cannot help anyone unless they want help.
All feedback or lack of feedback I get from the my blog posts about my book will help me gauge the direction of my book(s) through these beginning phases of purpose and content consideration. I will continue to post new book ideas if there’s no interest in the ones I’m currently working on. I’m plagued by new book ideas; the difficulty is now identifying which one to focus on.
If you have comments about my book ideas or even recommendations for what books I should write, please help!
Humility is required in a world of pride and prejudice.
This is a concept outline for a book series that’s been floating around in my head in many different forms. This rough draft of my intentions is finally being committed to paper, and blog. I’d like to start sharing my ideas for the world, with the world, in hopes that I’ll get feedback or at least be able to gauge interest levels by quantity of feedback.
LIFE (A series of publications)
- OBJECTIVE TRUTH: MEANINGLESSNESS
- Map: Axioms to Meaninglessness
- “I think therefor something exists.”
- Mathematics, Calculus, Physics, Astronomy, Physical Cosmology
- Roger Penrose: The Road to Reality
- Probability and Religion
- Who am I?
- Honesty, Forgiveness, Acceptance, Unification
- Acceptance of Truth: Emotionally Manifesting Meaninglessness
- Integration of Truth
- Life After Truth: Freedom and Perspective
- Objective Reality
- Perspective: Subjective Reality
- Perspective: Subjective Experience
- -Expanded Self-Identification
- -Free Will
- -Power: Give To Receive Law of the Universe
- Integration: Freedom
- -Reflections of Self
- -Power of Surrender
- Self as Universe
- Accuracy and Extent of Understanding
- Integrity of Connection (“Internal” and “External”)
- Discipline to Override Impulse
- Manifestation of Whim