I wake up now

I have been living my life like a snooze button.
Not because I am tired, because I don’t want to wake up.
Because I didn’t believe I had the power to change.

Life was happening to me.
I was watching.

I told myself I had no power.
It was easier to believe that than to face the work.
Easier to avoid the pain than to sit in it.

Avoiding pain doesn’t remove it. It reschedules it with interest.

In a world where everything seems possible
I believed nothing was available to me.

That wasn’t true.

Nothing becomes available without effort.
There is no magic. Effort is magic.
Power is courage – choosing to act.

Now I choose to hold my own power.
Now I choose a direction.
I am ready to rebuild.

I wake up now.